I have decided that I will weigh in each week on Wednesday morning (usually around 7 am while I am getting ready for work). This will be my official weight of the week, regardless of the various scale hops I do during the week. So here is my first official weigh in:
240.2 – which translates to a 2.4 loss! Woohoo!!
Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I was just totally swamped with work and kid issues (my son lost his glasses and we spent an hour searching for them at the school – btw they were found this morning). I also made a pretty big decision yesterday that I hope will turn into something great. I will hopefully know more this afternoon.
The reason I was spurred into making a tough decision was the fact that I had a really bad day at work on Monday after a weekend of sabotaging myself. So after my post on Monday, I received a wonderful email from my cousin (who has lost 60 pounds in the past few months) whose words really helped me put things into perspective. Yesterday while I was still thinking about her email I attended a wellness seminar regarding Healthy Weight and Wellness presented by Ellen Resnick of www.thoughfulweightloss.com. During that seminar we learned about the following:
• The importance of prioritizing your wellness goals and tips to stick with it.
• Mindfulness skills and practices for calming your mind and relaxing your body in times of stress.
• To end your dependence on eating as a means of coping with difficult emotions. You’ll not only discover easy ways to soothe urges to overeat, you’ll also learn how to differentiate emotion-driven hunger from healthy hunger.
• To bring down your cortisol levels (the stress hormone that makes you crave food) by slowing down your breathing intentionally.
• To reach for these tools instead of the refrigerator next time you feel the urge to snack – these alternatives are just as satisfying.
I realized that while my mindless eating comes from stress and unhappiness. In particular I am not happy with my job. I feel undervalued, unchallenged and as though I am not wanted. I really have never experienced such a negative environment and I have been here for almost three years just dealing with it. In dealing with it I have continued to maintain my weight and have not really made it very far at all in my efforts despite the amount of exercise and dieting I have done. I am glad I have finally figured this out and now I am on a mission to change it.
In the seminar yesterday we also discussed some of the principles from the Beck Diet Solution. I have heard great things about this program and book and the way it helps you understand your thinking/reasoning process in connection with your eating habits. I am going to order the workbook and check the book out at the library and see if I can apply some of these principles to my life.